Saturday, July 16, 2016

Dear Reader,

This is happening.  It is happening now, and I'm going to publish something.  There are a couple unpublished posts that got started, but I ran out of steam or energy or courage to keep them going.  This one is going to be different.

It's not been a good couple of weeks.  There are family issues happening, work issues happening, humanity keeps showing off how awfully we treat each other... This has gotten me down in a fairly serious funk.  I go to work... I do my shopping... I try to operate as normal, but there's an anxiety lurking behind the scenes that I haven't been able to shake.  It would be wonderful if I had a secret to share, of how I broke past the funk and am now coping wonderfully with everything.  But that's the thing... Shitty things keep happening in the world around me, and it makes me sad.  Why do we do it?  You can stand behind your assorted ideologies... well, not YOU, dear Reader, but you get my drift, right? Political; religious; sociological; economical... take your pick. If you want, you've got your justification ready for you...

And I can't tell you how to connect the dots from that paragraph above to how I am coping right now, but somehow I've decided that I need to forget what everybody is trying to tell me.  I know what's right and good, and I'm just going to strive to be nice to people.  I'm making a conscious effort to be pleasant and understanding and patient.  So, here's to trying, right?

Wednesday, June 22, 2016

Dear Reader.

So, the best way to get into writing is to write about something you know.  That's the approach I'm going to take today.  And the topic I feel I know a bit about is my job.

I've been working at the Salt Lake International Airport for a company called HMS Hosts for just a touch over eight years now.  We manage about half of the food places throughout the airport, but I think I've got one of the cake jobs.  I'm in Accounting, where I stay in an office setting, away from the hustle and bustle of the travelers and other workers out there.  I don't think I'd trade that job for any other, inside my company or out, for anything. 

And while there are lots of perks to my job... one of the best things is just watching people.  There is the potential for lots of drama while people are working their way through TSA screening, but once their through, they can settle down a bit.

That said, I have seen the police throwing the handcuffs on unruly passengers.  Don't be fooled, TSA is one thing, but those police officers are full-fledged enforcers of the law, and they will send you to jail if you deserve it.  Nothing will ruin your vacation or your business trip faster than having to bail out of jail before you even get started.

And lastly, I'm routinely the only person in my office.  This is awesome because I can listen to the radio or whatever music I wish.  This means that I can... and have listened to the "Hamilton" soundtrack more than is probably healthy.  But I do it and sing along with no shame whatsoever.

Can you do that at your job?

Monday, June 13, 2016

Last week, the Accounting Staff had lunch with our Fearless Leader.  She picked her favorite place to take us in the Airport, and we sat down for an hour+ and hung out, ate some really good food for airport fare, and talked.  Lunch can seem like a really formal affair, but when it's just us, it's pretty laid back.  Fearless Leader takes a genuine interest in us.  I guess it can be a fine line, between boss and employees, but I'd say that our crew is as close as real friends as our working relationship can allow.  That sounds odd, but I hope that idea conveys correctly.  Anyhow, when Fearless Leader asks me what interesting recipes I've tried lately, or if I'd done anything with my blog lately, she really cares about my answers.  I told her that I'd just let Sinister Coffee sit and do nothing for an awful long time, and she just accepted that answer... no judgement.  But this time, I felt a little twinge of guilt.  So, this is an attempt to try and get things going.  I'm going to try and make this work again.  I'm really going to try.

The trouble, or maybe the opportunity I face is that I don't have a good focus on what to write about.  I think of who I was when I started this blog... sooooo many years ago... and I've changed quite a bit.  Some of the changes, I'm pretty comfortable and happy with, and others, I'm a little unsure of or maybe scared about talking about.  Hopefully writing about what I'm happy or comfortable with will help me understand the other stuff, too.

So, while I play around with some ideas, take a moment and check out this song... Be As You Are, by Mike Posner.  This song is wonderful and beautiful and quite likely uncharacteristic of what I usually listen to.  But a good song is a good song...

Wednesday, November 04, 2015

Dear Reader, 

I think I last wrote here about two and a half years ago.  Since then, my life has taken some pretty interesting turns.  At the center of it all, I'm pretty much the same person I was back then, maybe just a little more reserved and quiet. 

When I've allowed it, this blog has always been kind of a quiet distraction and even a safe place from the loud things in my life.  I've used it to keep myself centered and amused.

I've decided that I need to pick it up again.  I need to find a center to my life, and since I'm paying for the domain registration fees and all, I might as well use Sinister Coffee for that purpose. 

... And as always, JCW, you're the inspiration to this silly blog in the first place, so if you ever come out of hiding, you need to let me know what you've been up to!

So, I'm not exactly sure where Sinister Coffee is heading.  Give me a chance to figure it out again, dear Reader.  I'm sure there's gonna be stuff about food and books and music and video games.  Hopefully I can keep this up and keep it interesting!