The simple fact is that I need to sit my butt down and type something up.  So, this is what I'm doing right now.  I don't think I've been home for more than ten minutes now, but already I've had several distractions that have nearly waylaid this project.  Gotta FOCUS!!!

All's going pretty well right now.  Work is stressful and odd at times, but things are gaining momentum.  For the last month or two, there have been more than a few folks from Upper Management in town.  Business has been bad and Corporate has walking around and investigating.  Good news is that they're done looking around and have decided that we're doing all we can and that the situation is just bad luck.  More good news we learned today is that the most recent period (Period 2, fyi...) was the best period we've had in a while.

Personally, I'm doing well, too.  I had a Dr.'s appointment recently and things are looking good with my heart.  I've got another followup appointment in three months, and I'm sure that all will be peachy.

Yeah, the diet and exercise thing continues to be an ongoing struggle at times, but luckily, I'm into veggies anyhow.  Brussels's sprouts and asparagus are more enticing than chocolate for me.  Weird, I know.

So, all in all, life is pretty good.  I'm feeling oddly optimistic today, even.  Yeah!! 

Ok, roadrunner, this is for you.  I think I know who are.  I'm pretty sure, anyhow.  Remember those trips to Danbury?  Crazy!

Anyhow, I did a quick look and discovered that my last post is just shy two months by a couple days.  Quite a bit has happened since then.  Just up to that point, I was pretty sure that things were getting better.  It was just a couple weeks since M had passed away.  I was just starting to feel normal about then.  Don't get me wrong, I miss her like you wouldn't believe.  I can barely listen to one of my favorite bands to this day because of attached memories.  I'll probably never be able to listen to her favorite band again for the same reason.  We'll just see how that goes.

Well, two days after that post on the 12th of December, I had a pretty big heart attack.  Literally calling 911 and getting into an ambulance and riding off to the hospital.  That kind of heart attack.  I spent a few days in the hospital, then a few days with family in Tooele, then returned home in the City. 

Since then, every day is a combination of highs and lows... but mostly highs.  I've had to reevaluate my life in more than a few different ways.  Physical, mental, spiritual... I've been rethinking how I do things and how and why I think about other things.  A lot of this, I've kept to myself, but there are a few people who I've been able to confide in.  The past few months have been trying and really horrible at times, but I've learned some really valuable things because of it all.  I've got a positive outlook on life that I haven't had for a while, and it feels good to know that.

I've come home to find that I have a new neighbor.  I don't know what they look like, and I probably never will.  They're my through-the-kitchen-wall neighbor, which means that they live on the other side of the building.  How do I know they are there?  It's the noise of moving in.  Cabinet doors are being opened and shut, and I can only hope that once they are settled, they will do their opening and shutting more quietly.  I also hope that the quiet carries over from their actions and there is no fighting.  Of course, the apartment in question is a studio, which means that ideally, there will only be one occupant, but the last neighbor was a young couple, and they fought frequently.  sigh...

But only time will tell how that will play out.  Speaking of things to come, the end of the year is nigh.  I'm not concerned with the end of the Mayan calendar, but something even more insidious.  A few months back, we (the Accounting Department of my Company) were informed that the Company, as a whole, was going to change the way that accounting was done.  Positions would be done away with and then other positions will be created to accommodate this new way of doing things.  The Controller told us that there might be more downsizing to come.  Yeah, just months past having layoffs and downsizing throughout the branch, the Accounting Dept. might have to shrink some more.  Thrilling, huh?!?!

I am 98% positive that I will stay.  I'm just too damn valuable to let go.  Yeah, I'm awfully humble, too.  But I'm nearly as certain that K will stay with me in the Room.  Things get fuzzy when it comes to the Accountants.  There are three of them, and one of them is pretty worried that they'll be let go because of seniority and whatnot.  I'm pretty sure that they will stick around, and I've got some pretty good reasons for my thinking, but we just don't know right now. 

And so, that's how things are going right now.  Other than that uncertainty, life's been getting back to whatever normalcy we can have right now.  We're still kind of getting our routine back in the Room without M.  I miss her on a daily basis, mostly over really stupid things.  Songs I'd want to share, or stories I'd want to tell.  I hear the same thing from others, too.  It's good to know that there are others who miss M as much as I do...

It's kind of funny how some (early) mornings seem darker than others.  When I leave my place to go to work, there's usually an hour or so before the sun rises.  Most of the times, it just seems like an average morning: not getting light yet, but you can tell that there's potential.  This morning, it just seemed darker than usual.  If we were in the Harry Potter universe, I might think that there were Dementors out and about, but that's just not the case.  So, that's how the day started.

When I got to work, I discovered that there was a meeting that we (K and myself) needed to attend.  Going to meetings has just recently become "a thing" for us to do.  Before, when the boss's office was half-the-airport away, we didn't have to do these things.  It was just too inconvenient to get everybody together.  Now that we are just next door to the Accounting Office, these meetings are something that we get "invited" to once or twice a week.  I'm used to coming into work, doing my job and then leaving for the day when the job is done.  Now my schedule is broken up by these meetings.  Not quite sure what to think of this right now...

But this wasn't any ordinary meeting, this turned into a meeting with our new Big Boss.  A month or so ago, we were informed that our G.M. had been promoted and was taking a new position in Seattle.  Good for her!  But this meant that there would be a new G.M. coming to take her place.  Just a little stressful kind of situation, right?  And that doesn't even take into account the possible downsizing (yes, again with the downsizing) that could occur at the end of the year.  Now, I can hear you now, dear Reader.  "Why haven't you said anything about more downsizing?!!!?!", you're asking/shouting.  The truth is that the details are so vague right now that it doesn't make sense to worry about anything yet.

Anyway, we got to meet our new Big Boss today.  Everything went well, so my early morning omen was a bust.  Slowly but surely, things are settling into a new kind of routine at work.  C, my former supervisor, has come back to the Cash Room in a limited role, so K and I aren't the only ones there.  It's alright for now, but I hope we're able to make something more permanent happen soon.